A Big Step

Today I took a big step and called an adoption agency about adopting a Special Needs child. I have always wanted children but have not been in a position where I could have my own. In the past, I have told myself that it is not good to try to raise a child as a single parent and I know what that's like as my dad passed away when I was eight. By the way, my mom did a great job with the three of us and I am by no means denigrating her gifts and/or her sacrifices, I am very grateful for my mother and love her very much. I have decided that while this will be a difficult and challenging road for me, that I can not continue to watch children grow up in foster homes and residential facilities as wonderful as most of them are. I must be willing to put feet to my faith and my beliefs. If what I claim is true (which I know it is) than I must be willing to walk my faith out and in this case that means seriously looking into adoption of a special needs child. There may be many who will say that I should not do this, that I can't afford it, that what I do each day is enough, or that my chronic illnesses will get in the way but regardless of those things (true or not), I know that I must move forward and I believe that this is what God is asking of me at this moment. I would like to ask for your prayers as I look at moving forward with this, that I would have God's heart and leading each step of the way.